And I know, this is foolish. I know he hasn't changed and that I am making the same mistakes I've made before but...
All I could think, after I saw you, was that he was the only person who knew how to keep me under control. And maybe he could help me find that control here.
It... turns out I didn't need him for that. I... found something on my own.
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Less... surprise and more that I have been busy and... forgot about the date.
I want to make it special though. I will... need time.
[ All this poke-drama has been a headache. ]
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ANything is special if you're therE!
BUt I can wait if you want.
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Just a little bit more time. That's all.
Maybe... maybe things will go back to normal by then, too
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I MIss seeing you every day.
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I know.
I haven't really shown it lately but... I miss you too.
We are just going through a lot right now
My team and I.
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They're mad at me, I think
I wouldn't let them out when I was with Jack.
I won't let them out when I'm with Jack.
I am afraid they'll be disappointed if they see me with him.
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Disappointed is worse than mad?
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I think so.
How would you feel if I yelled at you? Compare that to how you would feel if I said you had failed me.
It's... It's like that.
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They don't have to be mad though. OR disappointed. You don't have to see Jack at all.
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He's my dad. I should see him, shouldn't I?
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He was there when I needed him.
Back in December.
It feels wrong to ignore him now.
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You could have come to me.
I needed you.
He should've been there for you on Pandora.
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I know.
And I know, this is foolish. I know he hasn't changed and that I am making the same mistakes I've made before but...
All I could think, after I saw you, was that he was the only person who knew how to keep me under control. And maybe he could help me find that control here.
It... turns out I didn't need him for that. I... found something on my own.
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It is... not important
Or. I hope it will not be.
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I have something too. A book. It belonged to the Pretty Lady. I read some but it doesn't make sense to me but it might for you.
DO you want it?
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I do not want to take away something of yours that was hers.
I know how much she means to you.
But. I would like to see it.
Maybe I can read and explain it to you?
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When will I see you?
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I'm not... sure.
Soon? Is that a good enough answer?
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